Monday, June 14, 2021

Is this thing on...?

 I can't believe my last post was in 2016.

and now here I am again, writing an entry.

Do people still blog? or is everything vlogging now? I figured since I own this domain under my name, I might as well make full use of it. Is this my emotional trash can? Maybe, no one will read this anyway. 

Looking at my last post and today, I realized some things are pretty much still the same, although a lot of what was and what is are very different. Worlds apart different.

But the hunger to go after my goals is still burning within me. I still have it, or at least I hope so. If it were to diminish, I don't think I could go on living. I do hope even after the day I reached all my goals, I'm still hungry for more, other things to achieve, new target to reach. Well, Steve Jobs did say, stay hungry.

Not to be ungrateful for what I have and will have, I'm just reminding myself to not settle. Cos once you settle, you go idle. An idle mind is the Devil's workshop after all. When I say reaching new goals, it didn't have to be something huge. It could be just maybe maintain a healthy sleep schedule, try working out on alternate days consistently, learn a new language and speak it fluently. People always have the impression that trying to reach a new goal in life has to be something out of this world- measurable success. What if for some being able to get out of bed in the morning is already their biggest goal they could ever reach for the day? Perspective is very important. 

Somedays I just want to love myself a little more and then other things crept up and I forgot about it, about myself. Other things are being prioritized. Suddenly other trivial stuff became more important than my wellbeing, my sanity, most importantly- myself. What other things could be more important than myself? You must remember that, no one is responsible of yourself other than you. No one will put you first except for you. No matter what people say, we are responsible for ourselves. Others can support, give you strength but only our own selves that could save us.

I have nothing specific to get off my mind actually. It just so happen I remember I still have this space and decided to get some writing done. Nothing specific. It doesn't seem like it but my last post was half a decade ago. So many things had happened since. Although while living it each day, it doesn't seem so. It's always like this, isn't it? You go about everyday routinely, then before you know it, half a decade gone. Soon, a decade will go by. What if the next time I drop a post, blogging is not a thing anymore? Just like the cassette tapes. Back then, who would have thought it'll go extinct? or maybe not extinct cause I think I saw it being sold as some artist's merchandise somewhere now. My point is, who knows what the future holds? Who would've thought the government would plead its citizen to stay at home? Suddenly being an introvert is something to be applaud by.

I don't know much, but I know this. The future is fickle. Today it's there. Tomorrow might not seem like it. Or maybe it still is. Just not for us anymore. Or only yours to take but not to them anymore. Who knows? Who is making all these rules? Who is calling the shots? Why is it easy for some but insurmountably difficult for another? Who creates these so called balances? How is it fair for any of us? What is fair? Is it the choices we make? Who gave us these choices? Did we even have choices to begin with? So many questions but not one answer. Guess we'll never know. At least not for sure.

Ok, I'm done asking. till next time.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Modern Lotus, 2016

Modern Lotus, 2016 by polingc

Monday, August 24, 2015

Empties + Misses | Bioderma, Philosophy, Mario Badescu & more...

Empties + Misses
  1. Guardian Cotton Facial Squares - everyone need this in their life. I use this for everything and I go through this like water, so whenever it's on sale I'll make sure to stock it up. 
  2. 3CE Fresh Aqua Mist (Mini) - I feel very indifferent with this mist cos I find that it didn't quite do much (?). Other than it being refreshing when you mist this all over your face, it really wasn't any special, and with this price point, there are a lot of other mist in the market with more quantity and do I dare say, better quality? Oh well, to each its own. 
  3. Guardian Large Cotton Pads - I bought this one when I was back then in Singapore but I can't find it back home now, which is a bummer, Guardians in Singapore has way way better selection than what I find here. With its extra large size it's so much quicker when I want to remove or apply facial products. 
  4. Nivea Extra Whitening Skin Therapy Serum SPF33 PA+++ - Very lightweight, easily absorbed into skin, would definitely recommend it especially for those who doesn't like heavy body lotions. Perfect for daytime use with an optimum SPF protection as well. 
  5. Bioderma Sensibio H2O - I love love love this cleansing water. This was also another purchase back in Singapore but bummed that it's so scarce back home. Eventually, I found a store that sells Bioderma but they're almost always out of stock. 
  6. philosophy purity made simple cleanser - Pretty decent cleanser that does what it says. I can't complain. 
  7. Nivea Body Whitening Night Serum - Similar to the daytime whitening serum, this is very lightweight and moisturing as well. Just right for summer nights when you need to moisturise your body, minus the stickyness that is left behind.
  8. The Body Shop Vitamin E Moisture Cream - I received this deluxe size sample jar which is a decent size that could last me a good 1 1/2 - 2 months of usage. I find that it is indeed a very good moisturiser for dry and/or dehydrated skin. Although it's called a cream, it isn't heavy or thick at all, in fact it absorbs really well and leaves no sticky residue. 
  9. CURE Natural Aqua Gel - This gel scrub is a highly raved product in Asia, especially in Japan & it is best used within 3-4 months after opening. I wasn't able to use it up within that time frame but I could understand why it is such a hit product. This exfoliates thoroughly and gently without using any harsh or rough beads. Do take note that this product only works when it is used on clean, DRY skin. 
  10. Mario Badescu Whitening Mask - I'd say this would fall under the misses part of this post. I didn't use up this tub of mask cos I simply didn't know how to make it work for me. There's something about this mask that feels like I just put on plaster of paris on my face and trying to wash it off is another problem on its own. 
  11. Mario Badescu Super Collagen Mask - This one isn't as bad as the whitening mask but I just didn't feel like it did anything it claims to do. It didn't wow me off when I use it and I couldn't be bothered to finish it up. Another misses.
  12. Vaseline Healthy White Serum - This one I actually received it as a sample bottle, so naturally, I took it with me when I was travelling and it's the perfect size. Another good body lotion and I would definitely purchase the full size one.
  13. 3CE Full Cover Concealer - I like this one quite a bit as it does conceals really nicely. I would say it's about a medium to high coverage as it's buildable, depending on your preference and need. 
  14. Mario Badescu Facial Spray with Aloe, Herbs & Rosewater - Maybe it is just mists in general that I don't find anything too special about, just like the 3CE ones aforementioned. I did use this all up but it's one of those products that I could make do with or without it in my life. Well, everyone's skin is definitely different so it's important to get to know and try what's to your liking. 
That is it! Guess I'll see you all again in my next post ~ 

Disclaimer: All products were purchased by me except those that were stated otherwise. 

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Monday, April 20, 2015


Maybe things are really simple. 

Maybe both of us are just who we are, where we're at- the different magnetic poles on the same magnet.