Thursday, December 25, 2014




Thursday, August 28, 2014


I'm definitely without an ounce of doubt the type of person (wow, that's a lot of affirmation there...) that constantly need background music in my life, during whatever & whenever I'm running my routine. I don't mind whether it's a music playlist running or even white noise. I just need some waves surrounding me, always.

Friday, June 20, 2014

My one true love.

I could literally eat ice cream as a meal replacement for all my meals. That's how much I love ice cream. Froyos, sorbet, old school ice cream- I take it all! My love knows no bounds. 

*scoops another mouthful of chocolate chip ice cream into my mouth as I type this* 

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Green Greed

Old habits die-hard. or at least that's what they say. After much reflection, I noticed that I tend to have issues with food. No, not in the context of having eating disorder or any sort, more like a battle between my cravings and my palate. You see, when I crave a certain food, I wrapped my mind around it at every waking moment - I think about it, I plan on where to eat it or even buying the ingredients to cook it myself. Then like always it'll come down to two things, first I'll either OD-ed on the said food and/or second- after I see the food or finish preparing it myself, I don't want to eat it any more. I don't want to touch it even. 

Let's say the food for example is mac & cheese, which was what I've been craving for so so so so long and then came the day when I'm off schedule for a few days and I went to the nearest supermarket to get groceries to make it. I was very very happy that I'm finally getting to eat mac & cheese. I bought so much cheddar, mozzarella (for my pizza which I'll get to it later, or not), cream, tons of butter and of course macaroni. I filled my cart with so much pasta ingredients that day it was unbelievable. I thought I was going to lose my mind from all these cravings I was having. I'm not joking. 

Then I got home, I didn't even wait to store my ingredients I just brought out everything I need to make my food and start whipping away. Because I was preparing my food in a hungry state, I was so greedy. I boiled macaroni double the portion that I would normally eat and cos there was a lot of cooked macaroni, I had to balanced it out with more butter, more cream and more cheddar. It was greed taking over me with a capital G. So, with more of everything, my final result looks like a mac & cheese serving for a family of 4! But, in the end I was the only one who devoured it all. And I really meant all of it. In the beginning of course I was overjoyed, all the cheesy goodness and it's alllll mineeeeee, my preciousssssss (please read it in Frodo's voice). 

I ate and ate and ate the entire serving and I swear I could feel my entire organs from my throat to my stomach all lined with full cheeesseeeyyness. I'm not exaggerating but I'm telling you, on the night itself, I had the best sleep in months - probably cos I don't have any schedule line up in the next few days. Anyways, if you could have seen me while I was eating, it looks like a sight of someone who had starved for days, weeks even. It was so scary. a few days later I have this out of body reflection and what I imagined in my head, the look of it is sooo not pretty. 

So right now, it is safe to say that I OD-ed on cheese and I'll not be near anything cheese or cream or butter richness for the very near future. The next day itself I baked chocolate chip muffins cos I don't want all the good ingredients that I'd bought go to waste. 

One of the things I can't tolerate in life would be to waste food. Could be from my upbringing of what my parents stamped on my brain from birth but it really puts me off when I see food goes to waste. 

Now what really bothers me, what am I gonna do with all the food and ingredients I've made and bought? 

All I really want right now - gallons of water to chug down my system, lots of tea and lemons, spinach smoothies shots, clear vegetable soup...anything healthy and detoxifying, really. 

Friday, April 4, 2014


Every time I open my mouth to speak with this person I get shot down ever so bluntly. Every.Single.Time.

I dunno how much longer I can stay with this witch.

I foresee that this situation will implode to a very messy matter.

It's just a matter of time. A ticking time bomb looks like child's play in comparison.

How am I still able to tolerate this poison?

I'm surprised I didn't wake up dead...yet.

Monday, March 24, 2014


A little run down on the low-down. One thing I never ever understood is why doesn't people ever fully comprehend the term 'none of your business'????!! I guess this phrase existed for a reason. & it is a very subtle (or not really) way to tell people off that well, you really have no right to know whatever it is I'm not telling you. Then, so why are you snooping around my matter trying to be sneaky and gets information from others? The aforementioned details are definitely irrelevant to you which is why you didn't know it in the first place. Damn, if only I could get a restraining order against you cos that would be peace to me. Utter bliss. 

I especially hate gutless individuals. Those that has a lot to say when you're not present and keeps their pie-hole totally shut when you're around. This would even apply to two-faced witches. Ungrateful witches, really. I literally couldn't understand, why?! I keep myself away from whatever muddy business your life has going on SO, why can't you do the same? Keep yourself away from what I do with my life if it doesn't concern you! Trust me, you would know if it actually concerns you. I'll make very sure of that. 

If you come by my blog just for kicks, don't worry... I'll make sure you leave with some wisdom.
Do unto others as I would have them do unto me.
Yes, if you don't like people dipping their dirty toes into your matters and life, DON'T DO IT TO OTHERS!

Have a nice day ~ !

Monday, March 17, 2014

Two-way Highway

I guess people often forget that love and relationship is a two-way thing. Yes, a guy can break a girl's heart but then we oversee that us, girls could do the same thing too, maybe worse. It's scary to think we have such power to destruct another person. In a relationship or falling in love, then without thinking (or doesn't want to) we hand over ourselves wholeheartedly at our own will to the other putting at stake that one precious thing that we held on to so dearly to us before - our heart. 

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Primal Instinct.

Hell-o there... it's a lovely Thursday and if you can read this it means you have more than aplenty things to be grateful for already. Anyhoo, I've always been an avid reader of whowhatwear and their sister sites & I came across an article in Domaine this morning of Karlie Kloss's home deco, which got my brain cells tingling a bit. Before I start off on my thoughts, let me put it out there that I'm not against interior decorator or anyone related to that field for the matter. Heck, I have family members in that industry even. However, I felt that hiring a personal interior decorator for your home have a little impersonal touch to it. Doesn't it? Tell me I'm not the only one on this.
At this moment of writing, my feelings on the said matter feels that the only person decorating any abode should be the person living in it. I understand that not everyone has the luxury of having spare time to plan and hunt for furniture, shopping and things along the line of it which is why I presume the occupation of a decorator/personal shopper exists in the first place. But that is another whole topic on its own which I'm not discussing right now. Let me just lay it down very simply, if it were to be my home/personal space/sanctuary I'm decorating, I would sacrifice my time on making sure I had hand-picked and most importantly liked everything in it. Easier said than done, I'm aware. Come on, why would I wanna share a personal living space with something I dislike or find displeasing? Probably it's just me and my picky nature surfacing but it makes me feel like living in a hotel or a guest house, some place that doesn't belong to me. I want when friends and family come to visit, they'd known immediately this is my home, my space, my style. I want it to portray my personality rather than my bank account and how much money I spent. Which makes it really easy for me to conclude that, all I want in my dig is my personal touch.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014


There are days I wanna watch comedy cause I want a good laugh. 

There are days I wanna watch horror cause I want a good scare. 

There are days I wanna watch thriller cause I want a good thrill. 

Today, I wanna watch a sad sob story. 

Monday, March 10, 2014

Maybe I am, Maybe I am not...

I think I could be a very stubborn person when it comes to advices. I swear I'm not ever the judgemental type when I meet anyone at all but if you ever try to shove advices to my face I'll start to be very sensitive and nit pick on you as a person. Exhibit A; I'll see if you're actually fit to give me any advice...AT ALL. You're not perfect, I'm not perfect. Just give me your views but don't ever try to make me see it your way if I don't want to. Trust me, 99.999999% I won't give two seconds of my time to try your perspective. Exhibit B; here comes the stubborn part of me - the more you tell me not to do anything, I'll take that as a fuel to actually doing it. I take negativity as a motivator. I might even thrive on all the negatives. That's just me. I don't rebel per se, there's a fine line to the situation but if you keep insisting and smother, I'd definitely turn a deaf ear.

But here's the contrary, I follow instructions very well, really. If I see a wall with 'Wet Paint. Do not touch.' sign on it, I, of course won't touch it. What do you think I'm an idiot?! It's wet and it's toxic paint. I don't wanna touch that just to make sure it's actually wet. You could conclude my stubbornness from it now that I'll only listen to you if it makes sense to me. If you keep spewing rubbish from your mouth, I'll ignore you and walk the other way. I don't waste my time trying to correct you or bring you to your senses. I'll just let you be foolish and have nothing to do with me.

The End.

Sunday, March 2, 2014


The other day I had a conversation with my mom and she was telling me about the official opening for the third longest bridge in the world which was on March 1st, but for some reason I thought it'll be on May 1st. I was so adamant bout it and keep telling her, "no mom... I'm pretty sure you got the date wrong. It's only gonna be open later in May." We kept going back n forth until my dad mentioned it's indeed opened on March 1st. 

Then of course I was so confused, who planted this weird date in May that I got so mixed up on. Later that night I'd only realized I read an article on Nylon for when Lana Del Rey is gonna drop her next album, 'Ultraviolence'. And you guessed it, May 1st. /handgun gesture, points at head and shoot./ 

And that my dear readers- the power of media influence. 

Monday, February 17, 2014


The devil is real and he’s not a little red man with horns and tail. He can be beautiful because he’s a fallen angel, and he used to be God’s favorite.
- American Horror Story 

Saturday, February 15, 2014

오랜만에 여러분 ~

Wow it's been such a longgggggg time since I last blogged in. But nothing much has been going on anyways so no big deal there. In my defence, I do have this urge all the time to blog at the beginning of the day then by the end of it in my mind I'll be like, meh... forget it. It's not that interesting to talk about anyways.pfft How displeasing this little devil in my head trying to convince me otherwise, always.

Sooooo, let's see what's happening in my corner lately - I've officially deactivated my Facebook account for over a year and no intention to switch it on again in the meantime. I still see no purpose to that website, tbh. Next, let's see... Oh yes, working on my future, obviously.. what else would someone my age do at this time of their life. Just that I probably am on a different path than what others thought I would be at the moment. Calling it my secret project, just can't tell you much except I'm working on it I'll let you know this much. 

Btw, are there even anyone reading this? Oh well I wasn't expecting a reader after being in hiatus for such a prolong period of time. If you visited here a while ago you would have read my little other so-called short stories of a girl named Doe but shortly after I've un-published it. I might published it again when I finally figure out what storyline I'm heading but no plans of that right now. We'll see.. We'll never know. I'm a very unpredictable person. 

I guess I pretty much summed up my life and oh! notice the post title in Korean? 제가 한글말 잘았어요 진짜 !  
That's all I wanna say.