I can't believe my last post was in 2016.
and now here I am again, writing an entry.
Do people still blog? or is everything vlogging now? I figured since I own this domain under my name, I might as well make full use of it. Is this my emotional trash can? Maybe, no one will read this anyway.
Looking at my last post and today, I realized some things are pretty much still the same, although a lot of what was and what is are very different. Worlds apart different.
But the hunger to go after my goals is still burning within me. I still have it, or at least I hope so. If it were to diminish, I don't think I could go on living. I do hope even after the day I reached all my goals, I'm still hungry for more, other things to achieve, new target to reach. Well, Steve Jobs did say, stay hungry.
Not to be ungrateful for what I have and will have, I'm just reminding myself to not settle. Cos once you settle, you go idle. An idle mind is the Devil's workshop after all. When I say reaching new goals, it didn't have to be something huge. It could be just maybe maintain a healthy sleep schedule, try working out on alternate days consistently, learn a new language and speak it fluently. People always have the impression that trying to reach a new goal in life has to be something out of this world- measurable success. What if for some being able to get out of bed in the morning is already their biggest goal they could ever reach for the day? Perspective is very important.
Somedays I just want to love myself a little more and then other things crept up and I forgot about it, about myself. Other things are being prioritized. Suddenly other trivial stuff became more important than my wellbeing, my sanity, most importantly- myself. What other things could be more important than myself? You must remember that, no one is responsible of yourself other than you. No one will put you first except for you. No matter what people say, we are responsible for ourselves. Others can support, give you strength but only our own selves that could save us.
I have nothing specific to get off my mind actually. It just so happen I remember I still have this space and decided to get some writing done. Nothing specific. It doesn't seem like it but my last post was half a decade ago. So many things had happened since. Although while living it each day, it doesn't seem so. It's always like this, isn't it? You go about everyday routinely, then before you know it, half a decade gone. Soon, a decade will go by. What if the next time I drop a post, blogging is not a thing anymore? Just like the cassette tapes. Back then, who would have thought it'll go extinct? or maybe not extinct cause I think I saw it being sold as some artist's merchandise somewhere now. My point is, who knows what the future holds? Who would've thought the government would plead its citizen to stay at home? Suddenly being an introvert is something to be applaud by.
I don't know much, but I know this. The future is fickle. Today it's there. Tomorrow might not seem like it. Or maybe it still is. Just not for us anymore. Or only yours to take but not to them anymore. Who knows? Who is making all these rules? Who is calling the shots? Why is it easy for some but insurmountably difficult for another? Who creates these so called balances? How is it fair for any of us? What is fair? Is it the choices we make? Who gave us these choices? Did we even have choices to begin with? So many questions but not one answer. Guess we'll never know. At least not for sure.
Ok, I'm done asking. till next time.