Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Sweet Dreams Are Made of This.

I had the most vivid dream yet. It was so scary, wait maybe not scary but so real, I was literally crying out of my sleep. As far as I could remember I was saying something bout 'don't go' .. along the lines. I don't even remember what was the dream was about. All I remember seeing was him in it. I hope i didn't say it out loud enough for it to be listened behind closed doors.

Must be from the disturbing movies i've been watching for the past few nights. Children of the Corn before bed is the worst bedtime story in the history of mankind.

I've never had such nightmare before. I can't stress how real it felt. It's almost like one those Freddy Krueger episodes.

Oh well, this is getting repetitive. I wish I actually remember what I dreamt about but you usually don't remember dreams after waking up for a few hours. What if this is the sign of another déjà vu ? I have a feeling if this would come true, I don't even know what to do. 

I need to clear my head. 

Sunday, September 9, 2012

생일축하 ?

Hello there ^^


For any special occasions like birthdays celebrations, there would usually be a dinner with none other than with the family members. This time it would be my special occasion where I'll be turning a year older. Which also means i'd have the say to where the dinner will be. ㅋㅋㅋ

When I was younger, not like im actually very old myself but younger in the context of pre-teen and teenage years, I look forward to this time of the year very much. It's my favourite ! I would even have a list of places to go. But then I was raised in a household of, well, u can say we're not much of a celebratory kind of people. Although we do commemorate the day over really nice meals, we do maintain a sort of distance within the family on normal days. With that much enthusiasm I have for the day, you can say that I also have the same amount of disappointment at the end of the day, if not more. I don't know about the rest but I really think birthdays are one of the important days everyone should celebrate with joy. It is such a significant day where u were born, ur first day on earth. & to be able to celebrate the day means u're still living and full of blessing. Isn't that enough to be grateful for?

On another note- with much disappointment over the years of growing up, i won't rain on my own parade. Now tht im older, I won't let others rain on it either. I will not tolerate or compromise my own happiness and dreams. I'm responsible for it no matter what. I gotta take over my life and not let others dictate, taking control.

I must take actions into my own hands. if you let others plan for you, do u know what they have in-store for u? Apparently not much.

어머.. I was suppose to write about my upcoming 생일 하지만 I got distracted, as usual. 그럼 it may be a lil cryptic this time.

In all honesty ... 안녕 ~

Friday, August 10, 2012

Of Coffee and Mustard Yellow.

모두 안녕하세요 !!
So as you would have came across (if you follow me on twitter you would. if you aren't, i dunno why are u even on twitter.) [kidding] [no, really. im serious], yesterday i tweeted about coffee and the hashtag is pretty much self-explanatory. Then not long after that tweet, i went and have myself a cuppa. it was kinda like heaven UNTIL when i'm suppose to sleep. I think i drank it at around late evening round 5-ish cos i remembered watching a drama of that supposed timeslot.

but anyways to cut long story short. i couldn't sleep last night. i must have drank it too late in the day and the caffeine was working overtime. i went to bed after watching 강심장 which was already round 2.30am. i literally was tossing and turning in bed for hours. i even tried reading a book, scroll thru tumblr, meditate, whatever. after all that, i only managed to fall asleep at 6am!

Despite falling asleep at that time, i had a mani+pedi appt to go to at noon. This is my latest nail-do.

Mustard yellow nails ~ #panda
Didn't take a picture of my toes but my colour choice this time is 'Suzi Loves Cowboys' by OPI.

Feeling like a zombie right now, it's not even funny. feeling kinda hungry too. im putting effort in sleeping early. wish me luck. will probably lay off from coffee in awhile and get energy from other healthier source.

모두 굿밤 !!! 

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Say Hi

Hello, greetings and welcome!

Ahh, how did i end up here when i've got nothing much to blog about now? This site has been my baby since '08, i won't neglect it of course.

There was actually a period of time back then when i would sorta promote my little weblog, if your would consider it. Like putting up links at SNS, signing up for ads to boost traffic and whatnot to put my site out there. Oh well, those were the days. I won't do that now. I've come to realize i'd leave my online journal close to my heart, be my little vent and rant spot. I'm actually more comfortable with this idea.

So why am I here today? Aishh i really dunno. Like many things in my life right now, 나 진짜 몰라요

아이고 ....  생활 ....

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

In Place

Monday, June 4, 2012


Have you ever had that sort of sadness inside of you? So intense, you never thought you could ever felt that much non-physical pain. They have this saying, "overflowing with joy" but instead you're feeling quite the contrary. In actual fact, you're overflowing with sadness. It was almost like all your senses were heightened to an unimaginable level of intensity.

It's scary. It's like a nightmare only that you're wide awake. You can't escape it. No alarm clocks to save you. No comforting yourself saying "it was only just a dream" cos you know too damn well it isn't. This is the world.

With it all, I've already forgotten how is it like to be happy. To feel joy. To be normal. The word itself sounds so foreign to me. A language I've never heard of. I felt something inside me- died. Long time ago. I could somehow felt it leaves & to stop it makes my effort seems futile. I could give you a smile, burst out in laughter, even make jokes to crack you up, but I can't say I'm being sincere.

I won't deny that life is indeed magical. Every corner is bursting with miracles. I just hope I would have the chance to experience life's beautiful work. When I see little children roaming around, I always wonder what is going on inside their head. How is it like to be so carefree & clueless, not knowing what is in store for them for the coming days. Maybe that's their perks- not knowing. Knowing too much could be such a catastrophe.

I want to runaway. An escape. To a place where I am anonymous to anyone. Somewhere that I don't even speak their language. A friend of mine described this as a "clean slate". I agreed. I want that. I would if I could. In fact, I'm working towards it.

I was gone long before you had noticed that I left. 

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #34

 Kanye West feat. Bon Iver's Lost In The World

Bittersweet to let you all know that Sundays Rhythm has come to an end (for the meantime). So until further notice, Kanye will be putting the closure on the post that I do every Sunday. It has been fun sharing my interest in music with all of you out there & i do hope there's many more good stuff to go around. xx

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #33

 Justin Bieber's Boyfriend

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #32

 The Black Keys's Lengths 

But in the end,Know that you've got nothing to lose,Nothing to lose...

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #31

 Beyoncé's Run The World


Who run the world? GIRLS!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #30

 Lana Del Rey's Born To Die

Come, take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain...

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #29

 Mika's Lollipop

I went walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
'Cause love's gonna get you down

Monday, April 16, 2012

Haul: The Body Shop & Mylo Xyloto

I went on & bought a few things about last month in March. I've recently really been liking the scent of rose ala Lovely Lace shop sort. So when i went to The Body Shop, i literally was sniffing every lotions and shower wash they have there trying to find those rose scent. I even asked the salesperson with me at that time to show me all their items which are rose scented. After so much smelling of all the good stuff, i finally picked up 2 items, one was the hand cream & another was the shower gel. They smell divine!

Wild Rose Hand Cream SPF 15

Moroccan Rose Shower Gel
I don't know about you my friend, but I've never, NEVER used a toner. You know that cleanse, tone, moisturise regime - yeah for all my life i would totally skip the toner, so it's just cleanse and moisturise. Maybe cos i never really found the right toner that suits my skin. 

Until that day of course where i picked myself up the toner below. Why of a sudden change u asked ? Well, let's just say i'm a sucker for stupid reviews. if i see people say "it is a must-have!" then my itchy hand would want to go buy and try it out. 

Sadly, it disappointed me. It didn't live up to my expectations. One mistake i did was i did not read the labels carefully before purchasing. This toner actually contains alcohol & it was too drying for my skin. Although it helped on my combination-oily skin but I eventually stop using it after 2 weeks. To which now it still has almost a full bottle on my vanity. 

Tea Tree Skin Clearing Toner

Last but definitely not least, I bought myself a legit album after years of downloading songs off from the internet. Well, it's been really difficult to download songs nowadays. I might even be buying more albums from now on. Anyways, this album is worth every penny. Thumbs up! *MUST HAVE*
Coldplay's Mylo Xyloto album

That's all for now. If you like me blogging stuff like these, there's more where it came from. Well, if you don't then sucks to be you ain't it? Kidding. Love you long time! See ya soon. Till next xx

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #28

 Drake ft. Rihanna's Take Care

Know you've been hurt by someone else,
I can tell by the way you carry yourself...

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Haul: Daiso

Hello my honey pots! This has been the long awaited Daiso haul that i've instagrammed few weeks back. Didn't get the time to write the blogpost until now. Although i gotta be honest it's under my draft for awhile already.

So let's get to it - i went to Daiso @ Queensbay couple of weeks ago. & i tell u, i almost went crazy in that store! As u all might have already knew, Daiso sell all their products at a flat price of RM5 (in Malaysia), i mean ALL of them. A lot of things i saw and i tell myself, "omg only rm5 ?! Take take TAKE!! " 

I gotta warn you, this is a very scary store for an impulsive shopaholic. Things that you take on ur cart will eventually accumulate to hundreds even. Thankfully, i still remember the chant, "My will is strong. My wallet is close. I will not shop." - on certain items at least. Well this is just a really mini haul post. I only got 7 items, the rest are of MamaC's.

Clockwise from left: Disposable powder puff (makeup sponge), Charcoal dehumidifier, Pill box, Plastic rectangular basket, Water-based marker.

I've used the makeup sponge, I don't know is it cos i'm not used to using a sponge application but this one has a rubbery smell to it. Almost like a rubber glove. funky but application wise was alright. The dehumidifier was for my car, although it's written for shoe cupboard =|. Anyways, i got the pill box cos its so much bigger compared to the old one i was using. It could store more pills and capsules which is great for my daily supplements. I almost always forget to eat those, especially the ones that require to be taken several times a day. How i wish i could wallop all one shot in the morning & be done for the day. I might OD-ed though.

Half fake lashes & Eyelash glue

The next 2 items are those i don't really use much on a daily basis but rather wanna try it out. I got the half fake lashes for application on the end of your eyelash cause they're suppose to be more natural looking as compared to the full size fake lashes. i've bought this type before from SaSa and they seem pretty easy to apply and blended well with my real ones. 

That is it of my haul for now. Daiso is definitely a nice place to shop with a really affordable price yet not compromising on their quality. would love to go there often but it's not exactly near from my place. 

OH! on a totally irrelevant note, Chatime Galleria is opening in Straits Quay. awesome my possum! so so happy, most of my favourite places under one roof + only 5 minutes drive away. 

Till then. See ya real soon. xx

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #27

 Yuna's Someone Out of Town

Who is this stranger?
I should be scared,
Could be dangerous..
I should be prepare for this,
...I wish I didn't fall so hard for you.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

10 Things I Hate About You.

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme 

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #26

 Coldplay's Charlie Brown

Happy April Everybody! 

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

24/3 OOTD

p/s. I need to stop wearing black...

Monday, March 26, 2012

20/3 OOTD

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #25

 Adele's One and Only

I dare you to let me be your one & only...

Friday, March 23, 2012


Top; F.O.S
Shorts; House of Treats.

Aloha my awesome possum readers! This was taken right before i went out to run some shopping errand this afternoon. Casual is key. Weather in Penang seriously could melt me away these days, hot hot hot!

Anyways, funny thing happened this morning. I have my weekly 3-hour Taxation class on Friday till the end of my semester. & as usual i had set my alarm the night before. So this "eventful" morning, i woke up - I DID, when my alarm went off. then instantly i put it to snooze, which is what i do every time my alarm goes off. i always put an allowance of 10-15 mins for me to snooze away. From what i remembered, i had already cancelled my alarm cos i was about to get up. but i lazily wanted to catch another 5 mins of shut-eye, so yeah.. the rest of it i think u've guessed it. i had overslept !
It was already 11-ish am when i woke up to a text from my partner-in-crime asking, " Not coming har!!! Didn't tell me!!! " HAR HAR HAR. At that moment had I only realized i skipped tax class. 

Thank you for reading on till here, that means u've just read on how my Friday morning went. 

OH! In case u haven't noticed. i finally have my own domain! it is now http://www.polingc.com So excited to have it personalise like that. Been wanting to get my custom domain for the longest time. Now that it looks more professional, maybe it's high time i take on blogging seriously. 
Re-link me if u previously have me in ur blogrolls or wherever that has my old link. 

Muchos <3 

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #24

 Afrojack feat. Shermanology's Can't Stop Me

This has been stuck in my head for so long, it's only appropriate to put it as a Sundays Rhythm this week. Enjoy! 
I hope it rings in your head like how it's stuck on mine. 

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Sundays Rhythm #23

 Jay-Z & Kanye West's Niggas In Paris

That shit cray!